HELLO LOVLIES!
I definitely have some explaining to do! (excuses, excuses) I was really hyped up about this blog when I first created it. I chose to do '52 weeks challenge', unfortunately a part of me really started to hate it as I had to stick to different themes each week. So rather than trying to think more creatively, focusing more on one theme and shooting more I developed a bit of mental block. I worked a lot at the start of it as well, so had very little time to think about it and even less time to actually shoot anything!
I origanally wanted to do this challenge because I felt like sometimes I don't use my camera as much as I should, but when I tried to force myself to use it more, it made me want to use it a lot less. A bit of a weird logic there. I have realised that even though I don't do any shooting I always have editing to do and new pictures to upload on flickr. I found that I actually do think and do a lot more of photography related stuff even if it isn't taking photos! I also bought an online photography course, which I'm already more than half way through! I've also started to do more filming/editing as it's something I wanted to do for a while. I've also come back to my arty side and I've been painting/exploring in the art field as well!
As well as that, there's been a lot of personal stuff that I'm not going to go into tooo much. But usually when I disappear for such a long time it has a lot of to do with myself. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and I have done for most of my life. It's not something I ever share, but first step on the road to recovery is acceptance, right? That's probably been the hardest thing to do for me as for a very long time, I've been beating myself up for it. A lot of it has to do with past events and being surrounded by people who treat me unfair and unkind almost every single day which gets really tiring. I've been in and out of jobs a very long time, which hasn't helped the situation.
I made this blog especially for the photography challenge and for some other bits and bobs, but when I realised that I didn't really want to do the challenge anymore I thought I had nothing else to put on here.
However things have started to look up a little bit. I'm starting a new job tomorrow. I've got offered two paid photography related jobs which I'll be doing as where and when needed. I've gone outside my comfort zone a little bit more. I hopefully will be moving in a few months time and focussing more on my career path.
Gratitude & positive vibes.
So this brings me here, wanting to keep up on my blog with the things I'm doing and photos I'm taking. I don't want to say that I'm going to post every day, week or month but hopefully you'll be hearing more from me now:)
I'm going to leave you with this photo. I did some painting few weeks ago, it was supposed to be quite dark, depressing and just blahhh. To be honest I just experimented with this one. I wanted it to look a bit different once I splashed water over it, but actually I'm happy with the texture it created.
HIYA! Hope you're all okay! This is just a very short post of some photos I've taken in the past couple weeks. The editing is a little bit different than usual too! I wanted more colours and lighting in the pictures to capture the colours and give them a spring time (a little bit summery too, I guess) feel. Hope you'll like them:)
